As I type this, today has become tomorrow. It still feels like today, until I get in bed and fall asleep.
Today I had alot of work to do, teaching 3 classes back to back. I didn't have much time to reflect on Alice, and her life, and her death -- yet she was with me throughout my work. There's a refrain in a Distillers song that kept me going, actually. I was working with people I didn't know, and in designing a course it's hard to know if people will get what they want out of the class. So the lyric is "Don't waste my time, come on, get what you come for" and it made me feel comforted that participants could take responsibility for themselves in getting what they came for; it wasn't something I needed to be occupied with for everybody. So Alice helped me relax and provide a better program, really.
Then, as I was just outside of the building on my way home, I saw 3 beautiful black and yellow butterflies intermingling, almost in my face. It was a rare sight -- three butterflies so close together. I stopped and looked at them, and a passerby commented, "look at the 3 butterflies together." I knew it was Alice immediately.
Next, as I moved to the other side of the garden with my colleague, the three butterflies came our way again! Still flitting and dancing in the air as a trio, they made sure we saw them. It was a sign that the three of us -- Sophie, Alice and I -- are still together. Alice wants me to know that we will always be together, somewhere.
Isn't it truly amazing that I could see this so far from home? I don't think it's a coincidence, I do believe it's a sign. And I'm grateful for Alice to remember me as deeply as I remember her. Somehow.
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